Women Build

When I was a kid, my mom would not let me use the circular saw when she wasn't home. I couldn't understand why... especially when I had to have stitches from a butter knife (good story by the way)... But now I'm all grown up and helping build houses. :-)

Who Am I?

"I tell you, before the cock crows, you will deny Me three times.
Every thought of your Self as smaller than you really are is a denial of Me.
Every word about your Self that puts you down is a denial of Me.
Every action flowing through your Self that plays out a role of "not-good-enough," or lack, or insufficiency of any kind, is denial indeed. Not just in thought, not just in word, but in deed."
~God~

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

I just wanted to thank GOD for the marvelous/resourceful mind that I have been blessed with, and the ideas that spring forth from my soul, and noticed through my mind. There is such bliss when your soul is unfiltered by fear, and realized through love, awaking, and actually feeling and knowing that God is working through you, and it becomes your experience lived. I am so grateful to have realized just how special the whole experience is to me. To actually be living MY joy!!!!

My wish is happiness, peace, and joy for all who choose it!

"Cranky"

So I haven't been getting much sleep as usual. Not because I'm having trouble falling asleep, but because my schedule is so full. I'm really not complaining though. I liked getting up this morning to get out on my bike!

I am feeling really philosophical during my training, and it's a lot of fun. Today while I was on my bike, a lot of interesting ideas came into my awareness.

At one point on my ride this morning I was so in the moment, then I flashed forward to the future all the way to September 13, 2009... the day of the race. I flashed right to crossing the finish line. Though I've never done a triathlon, and I have no clue of what the finish line will look like other than the images I make up in my head, it's more of the meaning of the finish line. There are so many days between now and then. I can't explain to you just how excited I am to enjoy every moment between right NOW and then. Each action I take, in each moment, is carrying me closer and closer to my goal. Each "step" is a chance to improve, is a chance to get faster, a chance to get stronger, a chance to grow... Each moment I get to ask myself, am I doing the best I can do? Am I making each pedal stroke count? Or am I cheating myself when I back off too much? Am I using the elements (the wind) to make me stronger? I was thinking how everyday is "race" day. And lucky for me I can see that so near the beginning of the training because each time I finish a workout, I get to check in with myself to see whether or not I have any regrets... Do I feel like I trained enough to improve, but not too much to injure myself. The body is my tool, a tool of the mind. And my mind is a tool (sometime a self-sabotaging one...) ;-) of my soul.

So the path we rode today is about 6 miles long one way. Then we rode back a few miles, went back to the end, then come back to the starting point. At one point there was a lady from our team that was a speedy today. :-) She was coming back while most of us were still heading out. I was thinking to myself how nice it would be to be where she was. But then I had to remind myself, as long as I'm doing my best, that is all I can do. And eventually I will get there one workout at a time, one moment at a time. And in the end, the only one I am in competition with is myself. I don't want to get to the end and say... is it over already? I want to get to the end knowing that I put it all out there on the course, and leave the race with no regrets.