Busy Busy Busy Schedule

So keeping busy is not a problem for me these days. It is finding that necessary down time that I am having a little more trouble with. There is so much life to live, and so many exciting moments to experience that sometimes it can be hard to find the perfect harmony between the two.

I am currently working at NetJets, Tri-Tech Multisport, and trying to start my own home-based business selling USANA products. I work 7 days a week as of this week. I still have to find time to do laundry, shower, brush my teeth, take my vitamins, eat, sleep, and find some time to train for the triathlon. I don't get to train with the team nearly as much anymore and that makes me sad. I have to train alone, and I miss getting to connect with the teammates. It is really nice having someone to run with. I like when I run with Bill because he has helped coach me a lot, and I also like running with Mary because she helps motivate me to push myself more and give myself smaller more manageable goals. I'm almost sad that the race is going to be so soon, but I hope to participate in it again next year, and hopefully get some friends to join with me.

In this moment...
~Be well~

Run, Forest, Run!

Oh man... Running! Ick. I feel like it's the hardest part about training to get motivated for. Swimming is easy because I'm motivated not to drown. Biking is the easiest because I just looooooooooooooove being on the bike, so I don't need to search for any motivation. But running.... ah shoot me. I figured if I reached my fundraising goal, then I should be able to ride my bike the last 6.2 miles instead of running it, right? Well since that is not an option, I realized just how bad I need to get over whatever unconscious fear I have about running, and get my butt out there and (as Nike so eloquently puts it) "Just Do It"! I mean did I honestly think I would make it to the finish line (without walking, which is my goal) without putting in the work? I mean I know God performs miracles, but I just needed to be honest with myself. 

So everyone that I'm training with pretty much knows that I just DO NOT like the run. Well yesterday it was really funny because as our group started off running the trail a few bikes had passed us by. When they went by I kind of reached out my hand as if to say, "trade me", or "take me with you...".  One of my team members, Ann, almost instantaneously said what I was thinking at that very moment... She said I should get a shirt made that says, "I'd Rather Be Riding My Bike". How funny is that? And it's so funny because it's sooooo true!

Well that is my little tid-bit for now. Until next time, and as always...

~Be well~

Inspired

"When you start looking for happiness outside of yourself, you are already that much further away from actually finding it." 

~Mary Cacciapalle~

Today is the only day we have

Today, I race myself.

Do I have what it takes?

Time will tell, and so will I.

RACE HARD! LIVE HARDER!

PUSH YOURSELF! SEE JUST WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF!

NO NO NO NO REGRETS!

Women Build

When I was a kid, my mom would not let me use the circular saw when she wasn't home. I couldn't understand why... especially when I had to have stitches from a butter knife (good story by the way)... But now I'm all grown up and helping build houses. :-)

Who Am I?

"I tell you, before the cock crows, you will deny Me three times.
Every thought of your Self as smaller than you really are is a denial of Me.
Every word about your Self that puts you down is a denial of Me.
Every action flowing through your Self that plays out a role of "not-good-enough," or lack, or insufficiency of any kind, is denial indeed. Not just in thought, not just in word, but in deed."
~God~

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

I just wanted to thank GOD for the marvelous/resourceful mind that I have been blessed with, and the ideas that spring forth from my soul, and noticed through my mind. There is such bliss when your soul is unfiltered by fear, and realized through love, awaking, and actually feeling and knowing that God is working through you, and it becomes your experience lived. I am so grateful to have realized just how special the whole experience is to me. To actually be living MY joy!!!!

My wish is happiness, peace, and joy for all who choose it!

"Cranky"

So I haven't been getting much sleep as usual. Not because I'm having trouble falling asleep, but because my schedule is so full. I'm really not complaining though. I liked getting up this morning to get out on my bike!

I am feeling really philosophical during my training, and it's a lot of fun. Today while I was on my bike, a lot of interesting ideas came into my awareness.

At one point on my ride this morning I was so in the moment, then I flashed forward to the future all the way to September 13, 2009... the day of the race. I flashed right to crossing the finish line. Though I've never done a triathlon, and I have no clue of what the finish line will look like other than the images I make up in my head, it's more of the meaning of the finish line. There are so many days between now and then. I can't explain to you just how excited I am to enjoy every moment between right NOW and then. Each action I take, in each moment, is carrying me closer and closer to my goal. Each "step" is a chance to improve, is a chance to get faster, a chance to get stronger, a chance to grow... Each moment I get to ask myself, am I doing the best I can do? Am I making each pedal stroke count? Or am I cheating myself when I back off too much? Am I using the elements (the wind) to make me stronger? I was thinking how everyday is "race" day. And lucky for me I can see that so near the beginning of the training because each time I finish a workout, I get to check in with myself to see whether or not I have any regrets... Do I feel like I trained enough to improve, but not too much to injure myself. The body is my tool, a tool of the mind. And my mind is a tool (sometime a self-sabotaging one...) ;-) of my soul.

So the path we rode today is about 6 miles long one way. Then we rode back a few miles, went back to the end, then come back to the starting point. At one point there was a lady from our team that was a speedy today. :-) She was coming back while most of us were still heading out. I was thinking to myself how nice it would be to be where she was. But then I had to remind myself, as long as I'm doing my best, that is all I can do. And eventually I will get there one workout at a time, one moment at a time. And in the end, the only one I am in competition with is myself. I don't want to get to the end and say... is it over already? I want to get to the end knowing that I put it all out there on the course, and leave the race with no regrets.

Tri-Tri-Tri again...

So I'm really excited to be training for the triathlon in September. My shoulders on the other hand, are probably not so happy. They are a little bit sore, but I am going to get a deep tissue massage next week to try and work some of the tension out. I can't wait to get back in the pool, and start practicing. And I'm also excited for the biking days. The running however might take a little more motivation... we shall see. I don't really have much to write today, so I'll leave it at that for now.

~Be well~

I loves me some music!

Joshua Radin
"It's a Brand New Day"

Some kind of magic
Happens late at night
When the moon smiles down at me
And bathes me in its light

I fell asleep beneath you
In the tall blades of grass
When I woke the world was new
I never had to ask

It's a brand new day
The sun is shining
It's a brand new day
For the first time in such a long long time
I know I'll be ok

Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last
And most stories have a hero who finds
You make your past your past
Yeah you make your past your past

It's a brand new day
The sun is shining
It's a brand new day
For the first time in such a long long time
I know I'll be ok

This cycle never ends
You gotta fall in order to mend

It's a brand new day
It's a brand new day
For the first time in such a long long time
I know I'll be ok

Rise Together

It's a beautiful time to be alive.
And the long walk home is peopled--
We, are everywhere.
Yet the struggle to surrender is where we walk alone.
So the next time you fall
look
to either side where you lie
and take the hand
of your dear Sister or Brother
whose own face is muddied.
We can rise together,
even if we fall alone--
for it's a beautiful time to be alive
even
on this long walk home.
(Em Claire - 2007)

Relationship Excerpt

Do we love our loved one enough to say the three magic words? Not "I love you." They're, quite frankly, a bit over-used. But here are the three magic words of every relationship: As you wish.

When we're prepared to say that, then we have truly given people back to themselves. Until we're ready to say that, we have simply sought to use our relationship with another to bring to us what we imagine ourselves to need in order to be happy.

-Neale Donald Walsch on Relationships

Remember...

What one man can do, ANY man can do.

Today

The joy is found in the journey, not in the destination. Now if I could only apply that wisdom to my life, and not just repeat the words... but actually live it! How grand would life be?

Goals & Desires

• Improve my lung capacity.
• Increase my physical fitness.
• Be more flexible.
• Strengthen my self-discipline.
• Find a job that I love doing.
• Pay off my student loans and credit cards.
• Travel.
• Volunteer often.
• Write more.
• Take more photographs.
• Video record events.
• Do projects on the computer with music, videos, and photographs.
• Learn a new instrument (either the cello, double bass, djembe, and/or piano).
• Spend time outside.
• Play.
• Create.
• Drink more water.
• Read.
• Go back to school.
• Build a house.
• Learn about solar panels, and wind power.
• Go backpacking.
• Hike the Appalachian Trail.
• Have at least one child.
• Adopt at least two children (preferably siblings so they don't have to be separated).
• Earn my masters degree, and doctorate (though I'm not sure in what yet).
• Meditate.
• Become consciously aware.
• Be grateful.
• Experience who I am.
• Be peaceful.
• Be patient.
• Sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching, and love like I've never been hurt.
• Live as if it were on purpose.
• Organize my stuff.
• Let go of things I don't need to hold on to anymore (material things, as well as mental/emotional things).
• Get a dog.
• Finish my private pilot license.
• Fly helicopters.
• Recycle.
• Have a meaningful relationship with myself so that I may have meaningful relationships with others.
• Get back into rowing, and compete in a 2k race.
• "Walk" MY journey.

I'm sure there will be many more things I will think of later, but for now this shall conclude the list.

Volunteering

I wish it was May 12. That is the day I have my training/information classes for my volunteering.

I have an information meeting for the Nationwide Children's Hospital from 1:00pm-3:00pm. Then I have a training class for the Franklin County Dog Shelter from 6:00pm-7:00pm.

Anyways, it should assist in getting me out of my apartment on my days off... and if I happen to make some new friends in the process, that would be an added bonus! Also, I can't wait to take the dogs for a walk and be able to play with them! YAY!

~Be well~

P.S. Apparently I'm a blogging machine. (Especially since I'm at work for 16 hours today...)

Creating your own world...

So yesterday threw me for bit of a loop. It was full of interesting surprises. I don't really know how to tell the story without giving away too much information, but it was interesting to say the least. Sometimes when days like that happen I can see progression, and yet I feel regression. It is like taking four steps forward, and feeling like you've been walking backwards forever. I'm not sure what to do at this point, so I guess the best thing is to do nothing.

I am not as strong as I need to be, to be putting myself back in that situation. I have not grown as much as I need to, to be back in that place. I am trying to be okay being me. I am trying to be okay. I am trying to be.

I want to live life from a creative stand-point rather than a reactive one. I guess it all starts with one day at a time... one moment at a time... one thought at a time.

We are three-part-beings. Body. Mind. Soul. I want to use all three when I create my present and future. That's why I am TriCreating.

Thanks to Amy

I am keeping up-to-date with all the latest and greatest ways to waste time on the internet...

When I'm ignoring your phones call and can't come out to play, it's because I'm updating my websites.

It's keeping me young and anti-social... YAY!